The moment I heard the familiar notes of the song, Oceans, float through the speakers, my heart began to worship. I’d heard this beautiful song a million times before, but each and every time I heard it playing it resonated with my heart. How could I not worship?
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.”
Testing My Faith
My faith had been tested years earlier as I walked through the pain of divorce. Having survived that dark road with the Lord’s help, I never would have dreamed that my faith would be tested in such a deep way again.
Each and every time I sang the words Oceans, it was my heart’s desire for my faith to grow deeper and stronger. But as they say, be careful what you ask for because the Lord just might give it to you!
Fast forward a few months later…
Now that I was walking through a surprise pregnancy, there was no doubt that the Holy Spirit truly had lead me where my trust was without borders. I was scared and definitely questioned what the Lord was doing with my life. I even went as far as admitting to my dear friend that I wished I’d never been so sincere when I’d sung the words to that song. I was silly to think that would have changed things and knew it was the fear talking. Surely you’ve been there too and I’m not alone!
Letting Him Guide Me
“Your grace abounds in deepest waters. Your sovereign hand will be my guide.” Even though my faith was being tested, there was no doubt that I wasn’t alone. I knew that the Lord was guiding my life. Even though it didn’t feel like it, I knew the Lord had a plan for the situation I was walking through.
A friend shared II Corinthians 12:10 with me, “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” I’m the type of girl that thinks I need to be strong all the time. This verse was the perfect reminder that the Lord wants to be my strength. I can let go because He’s got this!
Tests Aren’t Easy
No one ever said that the testing of our faith was going to be fun. But one thing I’ve learned through the tests of life is that we become better people on the other side.
You may feel like you’re sinking beneath the weight of your test. I totally get it because I’ve been there too! Can I encourage you to cry out to the Lord? Tell Him what you’re thinking and feeling! Share your fears and concerns with Him! Yes, he already knows about the situation you’re walking through, but He wants to lead you through it. He wants you to rely on Him. He wants you to rest in His embrace. It won’t be easy, but I promise it’s the best thing you can do.
Won’t you let Psalm 91:4 comfort you, “He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge.“
If you find yourself in the valley with your faith being tested, let me encourage you with these final words from Oceans. “So I will call upon Your name. Keep my eyes above the waves. When oceans rise my soul will rest in Your embrace. For I am Yours and You are mine.”
Never forget that you are His!