As I share today, this post doesn’t have anything to do with being thrifty. I feel that God has asked me to share a bit about me and so I hope that it helps one of you. Goodness knows I’m not the only one who has walked down this road.
When my dad passed away in 2009 I realized that there were some very difficult issues in my life that I needed to deal with. Over the past year I’ve been walking down a path to healing. As you know, healing can be difficult but it is necessary if we want to move forward in our lives.
I made the decision to talk with a professional counselor. At times it’s been difficult to unpack some of the difficult issues from my past but I’ve learned that they’re not going to go away and life won’t get easier if they’re looming over my head. Going to see a professional counselor was one of the best things I could have done for myself.
I’ve also read a few books, one of them being Beth Moore’s So Long, Insecurity. With a title like that, just picking up the book was very intimidating to me. I shouldn’t admit this but there were a few times when I knew we were going to have company and I made sure the book was put away. After all, I’m not supposed to be insecure right?
Something I’ve learned on this journey is that everyone is insecure. That’s right, everyone. No matter how much you think someone has everything pulled together, they face some type of insecurity. I don’t know about you but that makes me feel loads better.
I’ve also learned that many times I’ve been my own enemy by allowing something someone says to cause me to be insecure. I can either choose to take what is said and let it bog me down or I can choose not to accept it. Satan wants us to keep going over and over those lies in our heads and loves it when we lose our focus.
When this happens, I remind myself that I’m a child of the King and that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). He loves me just the way He created me (I’m so thankful for that). At times it’s been hard and I’ve definitely had to change my mindset because I’ve been thinking this way for 31 years.
Reminding myself that life will go on even after the hard times is also something that I’ve learned. If God chooses not to give me that friend, promotion at work, etc, I’m going to be okay and He’s still going to be there with me. After all, God sees the bigger picture and we don’t. Think of your biggest dream. The plans God has for you are a lot bigger than that.
No matter where you are on your journey, God loves you more than you’ll ever know. He so longs to have a personal relationship with you. Call out to Him. Although you may not hear an audible voice, He’ll answer you.
If you’re where I was a year ago, I pray that you’ll have the strength to get help for yourself. You are worth it. Let me say that again, you are worth it. Take the time (and money) you need and get healing to help for yourself.